Dilemmas: My “dramatic” struggles.

A while ago, I found myself pining over a girl who was just an acquaintance of mine. I used to observe her a lot, (now this is sounding creepy) but I really wanted her to be my friend.

So I began talking to her, which was utterly terrifying, considering the fact that I’m awkward and anxiety ridden. I managed to speak sensibly and even tone down my eye brow wiggling to the minimum. Things progressed very quickly. She seemed to enjoy my sense of humor very much (chuckles wittily).In a few short months we became very close and even formed a group, with some other very interesting people.

Now here comes the very confusing part. I got what I wanted, to be friends with this charming and funny girl, right? Well, technically yes, but by getting to know her better, I realized that she is much less charming that I had imagined. I’m pretty sure most of you are shaking your heads in utter disbelief at how superficial I am being. I completely agree, I feel like I built up this whole perfect persona in my mind and essentially set myself up for disappointment. Of course I am not even close to perfect, so why should her imperfections bother me? Probably it was also due to the fact that I spent so much time thinking about spending time with her that I didn’t actually pay attention to who she really was, and when I actually let her be herself I was blindsided.  This is something I don’t usually do, (cue the collective eye roll) but it’s true. It really made me think about a few things.

Don’t you think that it’s important to Witness behaviour first hand so that you aren’t let down, rather than painting rosy pictures in your head that may turn out to be like the Scream painting? Or are there any situations where facts have no real precedence over blind faith or belief? What do you think?